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Recommendation and review of Ed Purgason’s “Lo I Am With You Always”

This book is so much more than a discourse on the functionalities of a ‘successful’ missionary – or how one becomes a powerful vocational disciple of Christ – or a self-help manual for the exercise of evangelistic passions… no, this is the heartfelt story from a man of depth, vulnerability and integrity. In his book, Ed wonderfully reveals how the phrase ‘leading with a limp’ comes to mean something of great value, and how much it really costs those who would take that journey.

For those considering the work of missions, or if one is simply seeking to live a life of gospel centered wholeness – this book dispels the notion that personal strength, or a firm grip on doctrine and theology, are the essential ingredients that build success. Ed is a great storyteller and with that gift, he weaves a true narrative that reveals just how God pours out His redemptive power and calls out His people to live in that power and might in the face of great difficulties. In referring to some of his experience Ed wrote that in Uganda there was “no room for pardon or mercy – no time for deliberation or defense – only the cruel hand of judgement.” And yet… by the power of Jesus Ed describes this very place as one of deep, deep abiding joy. The paradox of Ed (and Susan’s) journey and their story of experiencing and receiving this Joy, in the midst of roadblocks and personal struggles is a solid encouragement for us all. I’m so thankful to have read this, and I hardily recommend “Lo I Am With You Always
John W Sanders
Founder and Executive Director
Salem SoulCare – Winston Salem, NC
"The feel of faith is not a sensation of rushing strength through every fiber of our normally weak and frail being. Rather, the ancient text of Scripture portrays the feel of faith as everyday human weakness that is resiliently and even defiantly dependent upon the Lord. Ed Purgason’s portrayal of both his and his beloved bride’s walk with Jesus in Uganda embodies and expresses that very fusion; weakness that is fused or even alloyed to dependence.

In this honest and forthright presentation Purgason invites the reader to not merely admire him and his beloved as roll models, although I do admire them; he entices the reader to take their own life in all its impotence and bank on the King of Kings who brokers His magnificent grace through broken vessels like Ed and Susan, as well as every follower of his. And perhaps you who venture to take in this enticing narrative of God’s presence.

Fair warning then! If you want a nice devotional read to be impressed with someone else’s walk with Jesus, close the book when finished and say, “How inspiring.” I would shut this book right now and be done with it! That is not what this book is crafted to be!

However, if you are willing to explore what may be much needed repentance and exercised faith by you as a reader and consider risky trust in Jesus to actually impart His grace through you to help heal the holes in the heart of his world…then do not stop now. Finish the book. Strap in! Hold on! Pray much and finish the book.

A friend of Ed and Susan’s who knows Jesus better because I know the two of them.
Joe Novenson
Former Pastor
Lookout Mountain Presbyterian Church
Michel Hendricks review of Lo I Am With You Always

As we follow Ed Purgason’s journey to Uganda as a young single missionary in a tumultuous time in that country’s history, we see the dramatic ups and downs of missionary work. The richness of his experience there, the surprising maturity of town elders in Uganda, and the privations of daily life make a fascinating testimony to the blessings and difficulties of sharing Christ across cultural barriers. The chapter called “Container Fiasco” reveals the challenges of donations to poor communities that the givers almost never witness. The chapter also brilliantly illustrates the need for people with elder-maturity to teach the town youth how one acts when a container arrives from overseas filled with gifts. Talking about privations, we don’t really hear about how difficult Ed’s life was until he meets his future wife, they fall in love, and she moves to Uganda with him. As she starts to suffer, I found myself relating to her and being shocked at how difficult Ed’s life was as a young single man. How he and his wife handle these struggles and what this suffering provokes in their lives is a lesson that is not often told in missionary books. Ed Purgason’s heartfelt and brutally honest book should be required reading for anyone headed for cross-cultural ministry. . . well, any type of ministry really. Lo I AM With You Always is a page turner that takes you into deep water and leaves you thinking.
Michel Hendricks
Director and Coach of Life Model Consulting
Life Model Works Boulder, CO
Lo I Am With You Always by Ed Purgason is a must-read for anyone contemplating the mission field. In his memoir, Ed recounts his experiences while serving as a missionary in Uganda during the 1980s. What makes this book stand out is Ed’s raw transparency about the struggles he faces as he encounters corruption, violence and disappointment. Yet he also describes the immense joys of his ministry and the deep relationships formed. His narrative draws you in, bringing this rich and exciting story to life. You will laugh, be on the edge of your seat, feel the frustration and feel the exhilaration. Most of all, you will be encouraged in your faith.

A gripping and my favorite part of the book is when Ed’s future wife, Susan, comes onto the scene. After a blind date and whirlwind romance, Susan finds herself married to Ed and thrown into a life drastically opposed to the comfortable one she knew. As secrets are exposed, both Ed and Susan are faced with a new set of challenges to overcome.

I highly recommend this book to anyone, whether considering the mission field or not. This is a story that needed to be told!
Beth Stewart
Greensboro, NC
How refreshing to read autobiographically how the amazing grasp of Jesus Christ can truly transform a man’s heart and not just his mind or behavior. In his book, Lo, I Am With You Always, Ed Purgason vulnerably exposes his struggles, mistakes, and cross-cultural mishaps. He also joyfully writes about the victories and incredulous work of the Holy Spirit as he (and joined by wife Susan later in the book) ministered in Uganda. As I read, I thought, this writer is telling me about a God who pursues us until we are so consumed by Him that we have no shame or pride, just Christ in us.

There are several perspectives from which I could recommend reading Lo I Am With You Always:

With many concrete examples, the book expounds on the absolute importance of interpersonal relationships in ministry. The repetition of this point makes it a major theme.

It paints a beautiful picture of God’s desire for our fierce devotion to, reliance on, love for and enjoyment of Him. Ultimately, it’s always, only, about Him.

With brutal honesty it relates how the locals, as well as the missionaries, served God in a treacherous country, sometimes experiencing the miracle of protection and sometimes experiencing horrendous injustice and even death.

It portrays God’s goodness in creating romantic love and the joy of marriage while also relaying, with vulnerability, the hard work of Christian marriage.  Ouch-no soft-pedaling about marriage is found in this book.

I especially want to give the book a shout out to Christians preparing for cross-cultural work. As a missionary having worked in numerous different countries and with a variety of people groups, I respectfully observed Ed’s recognition and grappling with the nuances of cross-cultural work amongst various ethnic and religious groups in Uganda, Kenya and even America. Ed’s ability (gift) to identify, translate, and employ cross-cultural understanding is rare and his book devotes pages to illuminating his encounters with these challenges.
Robert M. McGalliard, CFP
EPIC, Inc. Greensboro, NC
From the first paragraph of Lo, I Am With You Always, you sense you are being invited into something far deeper than a memoir. This is not merely a retelling of missionary experiences or a nostalgic nod to romantic beginnings—it is a sacred story of surrender, suffering, and joy, woven together by the unwavering presence of God. As a Christian reader and friend of the author, I can say this is one of the most refreshingly honest and spiritually nourishing books I’ve read in years.

Ed Purgason’s storytelling is both vivid and vulnerable. With warmth and humility, he recounts his years of ministry in Uganda during the turbulent 1980s, a time when the country was still reeling from the devastation of Idi Amin’s dictatorship. The narrative—part mission journal, part love story, part spiritual confession—blends engaging personal anecdotes with theological depth. It is this blend that makes Lo, I Am With You Always stand apart from other missionary accounts.

The book is structured around three interconnected threads: A Mission, A Romance, and A Marriage. Purgason’s mission to Uganda begins not with confidence but with honest doubt, even spiritual warfare—an encounter with demonic oppression that shatters his Western assumptions and plunges him into the reality of the unseen spiritual realm. Yet it is precisely in these moments of weakness and fear that God’s promise, “Lo, I am with you always” (Matthew 28:20), begins to take shape. He is not alone. Ever.

The romance, beautifully interwoven with the mission, is more than a sweet subplot. It is the story of how God brought Ed and Susan together through providential timing and kindred callings. Their courtship is refreshingly grounded in shared purpose and prayer, not infatuation or convenience. And their marriage—planted in the soil of cross-cultural ministry—grows not without pain. Ed bravely reveals the tensions, missteps, and healing that mark their early years, offering an authentic portrayal rarely found in missionary biographies.

What struck me most, however, was the book’s powerful undercurrent of joy. Not the fleeting kind that depends on circumstances, but the resilient, radiant joy that springs from Christ’s presence in the midst of suffering. Whether describing the hunger of Ugandan pastors for God’s Word, the laughter of children at a village wedding, or the transformative power of a single Bible gifted to a man who had pastored for forty years without one—this book pulses with resurrection hope. One especially unforgettable moment is the closing worship service at the pastors' conference, where men from eight tribes and languages, once divided by war and suspicion, embrace in spontaneous, Spirit-filled unity. It is a glimpse of the Kingdom.

Purgason’s voice is conversational and wise, never preachy, but always anchored in Scripture. His theological reflections on spiritual warfare, cultural humility, and Christian community are woven seamlessly into the narrative. You don’t feel like you're being taught—you feel like you’re walking with a trusted friend who has lived the lessons he's sharing.

In the end, Lo, I Am With You Always is not simply a story about missions or marriage. It is a testament to the faithfulness of God—His presence in our doubts, His mercy in our brokenness, and His joy in our surrender. It’s the kind of book you’ll underline, quote to friends, and revisit when you need to remember that yes, He is with us—even to the end of the age.

Read this book. Not because it’s perfect, but because it’s true. It will stir your spirit, soften your heart, and make you want to say yes to God’s call—whatever it may be.
Helen Vaughan PhD
retired educator and missionary
Author of The Handbook of Transformational Education